April 25, 2008
Written By: Woman – 28 – Straight – Missouri, USA
This is not something I’m proud of but I just need to express what I’m feeling in writing and this seems like the safest place. I married my husband when I was 19. I was a virgin and was pretty naive. I thought I knew what I was doing. In retrospect, I don’t think it was a mistake. I have a beautiful daughter to thanks to my marriage. But I know that my relationship with my husband is over. Every night, I go into the bathroom and leave the water running as I cry and cry.
I’m falling in love with another man. I’ve known him for five years. For most of those, he was just a good friend. But it’s hard not to fall for a man who is there for you every time you need him. He’s a man who understands me more than any person apart from my mother. I believe he would do anything for me.
I’ve stayed with my husband this long for my daughter, hoping things would somehow work out against all odds. But I can see how our fighting and my husband’s emotional distance are hurting her. I think it’s time for both of us to move out. I have a place to go. I just need to find the courage.
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